Airport… arrival * introduction * impression * reservation * rejection * connection * separation * desperation * reunion…
Came together … stepped out * family* hesitation* resistance * frustration* tears * hurt * struggle* fear * relief * share * laugh * trust * confide * acceptance * letting her in…
Going away… realize * care * distance * sacrifice* communicate * mistake * hurt* change * challenge * difficult * friends * new * bond * smile * honesty * reflection * blur…
…*Wonderful*…
…*Mistakes*…
Changed… emotion * distortion* attempt * adjust* question * assertion * departure * confusion* a distance is born…
Selfless … good intention * intercession * family * mother * pretence * meet another * love * denial * acceptance * affirmation * excitement * confide * dream * decide…
Everything changes… absence * ascertain * heartbreak * acceptance* letting her go …
Reminiscence… recollection… memories… best of wishes
Have a good time at the parade.
There is the little man himself and a couple of weirdos.
The little man had to go in early for his yearly medicals, I am happy to say that he is doing well. We had such a good time, went to the zocalo; found a cool hippy/artesanias market and ( you can get genuine oober cool Guatemalan shirts for 5 dollars!) had a major "alambre" (look it up).
It's always a treat wen I see my fam, missed Esther and Angie thistime but we might catch them at Christina's wedding next month.... (she better let me plan the after party)
Monterrey here I come... consider yourself warned.
I love my family.
‘Alright Jo, we’ve got 10 minutes before bed time… do you want me to read you a story?
“NO! I want a story from the brain!”
‘A story from the brain?! Oh! You want me to TELL you a story… right.’
“About a talking banana!”
‘A talking banana?!’
“Yeah! A bright blue one! And it’s named Sam!”
‘Oooooooook….. So, there was once this banana….’
Stuck in my head, I even dreamt about this Sam banana character last night…
Oh for the days when kids settled for Hans Christian Andersen…
I blame Dr. Seuss.
Where's my copy of green eggs and ham?
Talk about parallel existence…
Today while reading the thots of a beautiful mind I caught a glimpse of the sanctuary where the heart and mind meet. It is in this place that these two giants of our soul are at peace and lay aside their differences… it’s where fantasy, like a ghost into the fog, blends into reality, where there are no boundaries to feeling, nor limitations to our thoughts or fear of the unknown. Within the fraction of a moment we remember...resent... accuse... condemn... forgive... forget and dare to dream once more.
The space between...
FREAKY WEIRDO'S... HAS A SINGULAR RING TO IT. HEH
WHAT DO YOU THINK FOLKS? DID THIS ONE GET IT RIGHT?
(Emrys): I’m the one that listens
(Emrys): I told you before, I’m the middle man…I am there when people need the shoulder to cry on
(Joaquin): you forget I am a Pisces dear
(Emrys): yet I manage to make some room for myself
(Joaquin): the master of middle man
(Joaquin): you have no idea
(Emrys):): lol
(Joaquin): do you know any Pisces men?
(Emrys): yes I do
(Emrys): I know many pieces men
(Joaquin): you do?? No way!
(Joaquin):): ok...
(Joaquin): the scam is up, no more holding out on me
(Emrys): lol
(Emrys): yeah you guys are freaky weirdos
(Emrys): but I like you never the less
(Joaquin): freaky weirdos?!
(Joaquin): I am so blogging about this one!
(Joaquin): ok, out with it! Let’s hear your thoughts on Pisces men
(Emrys): hahaha
(Emrys): you have a way of being so passive
(Emrys): but then...some things
(Emrys): become so intense
(Emrys): I am!
(Emrys): hmm
(Emrys): but you know
(Joaquin): no
(Joaquin): I don't
(Joaquin): tell me more
(Emrys): okay
(Emrys): well
(Emrys): you guys are always quite intellectual
(Emrys): yet you have this strange...almost weird side to you
(Emrys): that makes you say when you’ve gone for that second drink
(Emrys):): “yup”
(Emrys): “he’s a Pisces”
(Joaquin): lol
(Joaquin): loving it
(Emrys): and they always have very interesting laughter
(Emrys): like a giggle
(Emrys): between a snort
(Emrys): hmm
(Emrys):): they pick up something they love to do
(Emrys): say a guitar
(Emrys): or a good whiskey
(Emrys): and just get lost in it
(Joaquin): I wonder what I’m lost in?
(Emrys): or they become one with the moment
(Joaquin): are women an option?
(Emrys): yes of course
(Joaquin): ok and then what happens?
(Emrys): you get all spacy
(Emrys): lose track of time
(Emrys): sometimes the fact that you're a fish makes so much sense
(Emrys): like a gold fish in the bowl
(Emrys): staring at you but not even realising what he’s looking at
(Emrys): heavy
Joaquin wow
(Emrys): I know stupid
(Emrys): I’m serious
(Emrys): you get them on ONE subject that they love
(Emrys): anything
(Emrys): and without realizing it, they will go on about it for hours
(Joaquin): is that so?
(Emrys): thinking its 5 minutes
(Emrys): and then say…”quit wasting time!”
(Emrys): well maybe not you
(Emrys): maybe you’re one of those special ..risen above the sign thing people
(Emrys): which is cool
WHETHER SPACY OR NOT, YOU'LL HAVE TO TELL ME; AS FOR BECOMING INVOLVED AND LIVING FOR THE MOMENT... THAT WOULD DEFINITELY BE ME.
When I discovered that this movie was written and directed by Guiseppe Tornatore (director of Cinema Paradiso one of my all time favourites) and that the task of subtitling was given to Anthony Minghella (writer/director The English Patient ... my ALL time favourite, simply brilliant) and to top it all of starred Monica Bellucci!!...
It was a must see.
Of course having someone who speaks italian present only served to enhance the experience as she set them straight when the translating was off... all in all, though it wasn't everything I expected it to be, I liked it mucho.
"Buona fortuna, signora Malèna"
(Hortencia): why is it a good day to be alive?
(Joaquin): everyday is
(Joaquin): I am living my dream
(Joaquin): learning what love means
(Joaquin): and striving towards a purpose
(Joaquin): having to let go of my wish list... but I know that the ones that matter
(Joaquin): those will happen
(Hortencia): well good for you
(Hortencia):
(Hortencia): and what does love mean, by the by?
(Joaquin): love
(Joaquin): well it is the detachment of yourself
(Joaquin): and embracing something greater than what you could be on your own
(Joaquin): it is living for others
(Joaquin): and not being afraid to hurt
(Joaquin): to change
(Joaquin): to be more then you think you can be
(Joaquin): to let go
(Joaquin): and let love
(Joaquin): the Spirit of God
(Joaquin): move in you
(Joaquin): and take you somewhere you don't know
(Joaquin): know what I mean?
(Hortencia): yes
(Hortencia): I know what you mean
(Hortencia): and I hope it works out for you
(Joaquin ): it’s not exciting for everyone
(Joaquin ): obviously
(Joaquin): but
(Joaquin): it's what's for me
(Joaquin): so, I'm well
I must have a soft side… came across some thoughts from times past…
“…Life has been very different without you around, and I don’t say that in a dreadful, fatalistic, overly romantic way, well… I can’t help feeling romantic about you, but you can’t blame me for that! Right… I was saying. It has been different, it’s like there are moments that are wonderful, moments that I have learned to appreciate in solitude, moments that I would have never even noticed had I not been alone. They would have passed me by and I would have been completely unaware of the sublime beauty and intricate perfection that surrounded me… but the more I find myself discovering them, the more I realize that they will never be complete. I realize that as breathtaking, awe inspiring and emotive as they may be, they will never be complete without someone to share them with.
I guess all I can think about when I find myself in one of those moments is of how true happiness is incomplete when you have no one to share it with. Realizing that as wonderful as the moment may be, because you are aware of that completeness lacking made manifest in the absence of that special someone to share it with , the enchantment will simply never be good enough…and you being to experience a longing ,you hear that unspoken yet resonating call to attain that dream. I know, I’m not making any sense…
I think I understand me a little better…”
As much as I enjoy being alone…
All of you special people, wherever you may be… I know you’re out there, somewhere out there… and in time, sooner or later, I will find you!
Until then…
Let's breathe it all in, think less of ourselves and reach out to someone today.
CHAT LOG:
*Sigifreda *: The Eres in my Cafe Tacvba, goddess of communications, kissu ga sugoku jozu na hito and cruel mistress who wont let me describe her as I wish.
Joaquin: that would be me
*Sigifreda *: cuz everyone is so intense about their little place in the world
Joaquin: do you take your coffee with sugar?
Joaquin: two cubes?
Joaquin: can I be the second cube…?
Joaquin: I want to the be the second sugar cube in the coffee of people's lives
Joaquin: I just made up that metaphor!
Joaquin: I am a genius!~
Joaquin: I really like that one…
*Sigifreda *: but some people don’t like sugar
*Sigifreda *: it’s not healthy
Joaquin: but it makes things sweeter…
Joaquin: sometimes too sweet
Joaquin: and if it's what it takes for them to appreciate the one cube…
Joaquin: realize they need no cube at all…
Joaquin: or quit the coffee
Joaquin: then that is what I want to be.
Joaquin: the second cube
Joaquin: sigh
*Sigifreda *: lol
*Sigifreda *: ur hilarious
*Sigifreda *: and what a lonely life
Joaquin: not at all
Joaquin: cause when people are in a rush
Joaquin: in a moment of absent mindedness, inertia, distraction or boredom
Joaquin: they may throw that second cube in there
Joaquin: only to get a reality check in the flavor
Joaquin: the only things is…
Joaquin: that second cube can become addicting
Joaquin: you think there is any danger of that?
*Sigifreda *: `plenty
*Sigifreda *: there are plenty people who are a sweet-tooth
*Sigifreda *: when it's not good for them
Joaquin: good thing I don’t drink coffee
*Sigifreda *: good thing I drink mine without sugar
Joaquin: creamer?... I wouldn’t mind being creamer
Joaquin: heh
I have decided to make my blog a guinea pig... it may not be very reader firendly for a couple of weeks...
heh...
You'll REALLY have to read beween the lines now!
Kudos
